5.6.05

Chapped lips, chap stick, and things like chemistry (where opposites attract)

So both of the last two nights I've hung out with a bunch of guys. Now don't get me wrong, I had an absolute blast both nights. Poker, Super Smash Brothers (the real one, for 64, not the crap that they tried to make for Gamecube), pizza, pizza rolls, doughnuts, cheese puffs. Adam Sandler and Josh Hartnett... wait, why does that last one make me think more of a girls night?

Girls night... somehow I usually end up in more of those than I do in guys nights. Explain anything to anyone?

Honestly though, either one is a lot of fun. One tends to have a lot more talking, the other a lot more pointless video game violence. One has conversations you never want to be a part of, one has conversations you never should be a part of. In one, you watch a movie and cry at the end; in the other, you watch the same movie and make fun of the sappiness of the moment. In one, you go out and tp and the people who live there wonder why someone threw a couple rolls of toilet paper in your front yard; in the other, you go out and tp and the people who live there don't talk to you for a month; at least, once they've figured out that it's tp and no, it really didn't snow last night...

Oh well. I mean, that's what attracts us to each other right? The things we don't understand about each other? The things that we hate about each other? Go figure how that one works... It's the opposites that we all end up talking about at our respective nights as well...

2.6.05

Here's to the Journey

Somewhere between playing at soccer and licking the ice cream bowl,
I forgot who I was supposed to be.
I don't know why it happened, and I couldn't point to any one time,
But I sure know that it's happened.
I know that I'm a long ways down the path,
And that the quickest way to progress is to regress;
As much sense as that makes.

I went a long way from what I was in the beginning,
More than I ever could have imagined.
So much more than I wanted to, more than
Obligation demanded,
Respect required, and certainly more than
Running backwards for the next short while can fix.
You know what I mean.

Somewhere between licking the ice cream bowl and cleaning the bathtub,
I remembered who I'm supposed to be.
I'm excited, scared, worried, nervous, apalled, confused.
And I don't know if it's possible to right the wrongs and lefts,
To fix all the things I messed up,
To mend all the things that I broke,
Or to replace the things that I've ruined.
But I intend to find out,
And to try.

I went a long way from what I was in the beginning,
More than I ever could have imagined.
So much more than I wanted to, more than
Obligation demanded,
Respect required, and certainly more than
Running backwards for the next short while can fix.
You know what I mean.


Here's to the journey, here's to the strife,
Here's to the trials and hardships of life.
I never should ask, after all that I've done,
If you'll step alongside me, continue this run;
But here is my offer, imperfect and flawed,
Will you accept, or just stand slack-jawed?