Once Dread

Today,
I woke up
For the first time in years,
Not dreading the day.
Well, I did have a test.
And I did not want to leave the comfort
Of my bed.
Some days must be faced.

But today was wholly
Unremarkable, in its
Arrival. Left in the
Past, times forgotten,
Hating what was to come.
It wasn't always dreadful.
Some days it was really great.

Forgiving is hard. And
Lon, long times pass between
Words


And peace.

I do'nt know about peace,
Or forgiveness.
Some things just must be faced.
But today, I can face you,
Knowing things
Are different.

Yet with a kind
of forgivness,
A kind
of peace,
That at least
Is more than other days.
And growing, hopefully.

I pray for you:
Happiness.
Wholeness.
But first, peace.

Happy,
Whole,
Peaceful,
Birthday