Oh, the Drama

No one should take offense to this post, although only a few would.

I wish I had the strength of the will to decide that emotions aren't worth the effort. After all, doesn't someone always get hurt? I mean they tell you to always hope, but does anyone always get what they hope for? And they tell you to love others, but doesn't someone always kick that love back in your face?

I'm especially intrigued by how someone else getting hurt can hurt you. For instance, just this week the parts for our spring drama - The Merchant Of Venice - were posted (providing us all with quite a lot of drama). I myself was thoroughly shocked at what happened. You have three senior guys who all try out, one who is perfect at sadistic and evil, one who is our school's ultimate loverboy, and one who would have fit Antonio perfectly. Somehow, only one got the part that fits him (loverboy). It didn't make any sense to me. I looked at the cast list starting at the bottom, expecting to see my name by one of the lesser parts that I had asked for and the three main parts gone to the other seniors.

But then someone points my name out and I am the one who stole the part and screwed up the trio. And I just sit there, excited. But, I'm unable to share it with anyone, because I'm the person least deserving and least expected to fill that role.

I think though, that the way things turned out are ironic and fitting for my senior year. It's going to be the easiest acting ever for Shylock to want to cut out my heart, and this by his own admission. And it's ironic that (in my opinion) two lesser actors play lead roles while my favorite actor (especially evil actor) since eighth grade doesn't. Just the way that two inferior minds will play greater parts in graduation (we think) over the greatest mind.

But I think that the other way of casting the show would have worked out better. I wanted to be one of the little sidekicks to the trio. That leaves the trio each perfectly cast for a part that fits them beautifully. And that leaves me on the outside of their little group, wanting in but unable to ever make it there. But, such is not to be.

But, as it's gray and dreary outside and the rest of you are wanting to get out and enjoy the beauty of it as much as I am (No really, I'm going for a run because days like today are officailly the best ever), I'll finish this post (that I'm sure will make many people mad at me should anyone ever come across it and read it) with a couple shout-outs. To the other two leads, the only two people to tell me congratulations - Thank you. To the third senior - I didn't ask for it to be this way, I didn't try out for that part, and I apologize for having upset you so.

I'm sure that this post will come to be edited or even deleted, so enjoy it while it lasts; and if you happen to want to say anything to me at all, even if you intend by it to offend me, please do.